tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15137049476333945992024-03-13T02:48:21.078+00:00Bethany Rogers BeautyAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.comBlogger154125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-33431029786574750372018-11-02T23:50:00.000+00:002018-11-02T23:50:09.275+00:00Does it get easier with time? <span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">There is this outdated belief that grief gets easier with time. That it fades.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;"><br /><br />The truth is grief still catches me off guard, it doesn't take much.<br />A photo, a thought, an innocent comment made and I am transported back to a world of you.<br />It is amazing how our brains, our memories work, how I can be here in the present but longing for what my brain remembers of you.<br /><br />Regret is the worst though. Why do our memories get tainted with regret?<br />Our beautiful, fragile memories... And I wish had made more of them, wish I had let you know I was there for you more, wish I could have stopped your battle against yourself. <br />I wish.<br /><br />Time slips away, and I wonder does it get easier?<br />I think there are days when I find you are not consuming my mind as much. But the weight of grief, the helplessness, the scars, do not get smaller, if anything I sometimes find them a bigger presence in my life than ever before.<br />I try to be honest with myself about the pain. Because to bury it would crush me even more so.<br /><br />The biggest blessing out of tragedy is connection. I feel undeniably connected to those who have gone through pain. I know what it to be victim to what is beyond your control, and finding others in those similar emotions and genuinely saying "I understand" is something I never expected. It has allowed me deep rooted friendships with inspiring people, it has allowed me space to grieve with people who want nothing but to be understood, it has given me a deeper understanding of how much we need peace. And how I long for it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;">Every day is a step closer, every day I remind myself of all the good I have, of all the beautiful people i have in my life, of the loving father I serve. Words often escape me, it's hard to convey, but we have someone looking out for us who is "greater than our hearts" and I know he understands.</span><span style="font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace;"> </span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /><br />" 'For I well know the thoughts that I am thinking toward you declares Jehovah, 'thoughts of peace, not of calamity, to give you a future and a hope.' " - Jeremiah 29:11<br /><br /><br />Thank you for reading my ramblings. </span></span><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-7575996719893463342017-09-11T11:35:00.000+01:002017-09-11T11:41:54.132+01:00I Try - Macy Gray/Evie Clair Chords & Cover<br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">I did a cover of this lovely song on my youtube and was asked to share the chords i used for my cover...</span><br />
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Games changes and fears
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When will they go from here? When will they stop?
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I believe that fate has brought us here
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And we should be together babe, but we're not</pre>
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I play it off but I'm dreaming of you</pre>
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I keep my cool but I'm feeling</pre>
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[Chorus]
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I try to say goodbye and I choke
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I try to walk away and I stumble
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Though I try to hide it, it's clear
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My world crumbles when you are not near
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Goodbye and I choke
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Try to walk away and I stumble
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Though I try to hide it, it's clear
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My world crumbles when you are not near
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I may appear to be free
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But I'm just a prisoner of your love
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And I may seem alright and smile when you leave
<span style="color: #007fbf; cursor: pointer;">Em G</span>
But my smiles are just a front, just a front</pre>
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I try to say goodbye and I choke
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I try to walk away and I stumble
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Though I try to hide it, it's clear
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My world crumbles when you are not near
<span style="color: #007fbf; cursor: pointer;">D</span>
Goodbye and I choke
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Try to walk away and I stumble
<span style="color: #007fbf; cursor: pointer;">Em</span>
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
<span class="" style="color: #007fbf; cursor: pointer;">G A</span>
My world crumbles when you are not near</pre>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Much love, Beth xxx</span></div>
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><br /></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-5627533771896913832017-08-30T22:04:00.000+01:002017-08-30T22:08:24.226+01:00Poldark - How the tide rushes in - Demelza's song lyrics and cover<br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">How the tide rushes in Lyrics</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">How the tide rushes in </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">and covers footprints in the sand </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">As my hopes here raised and carried out of my hands</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">How the tides ebb and flow</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">as driftwood tossed upon the shore </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">and my heart's cast aside and lost evermore</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Yet though the ocean with waves unending </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Covers the earth yet is there loss after all?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">For what air drifts from one place is with the tide to another brought</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">And is not lost beyond recall which cannot be found if sought</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">A little over 2 years ago, My heart broke and nobody truly knew how that felt. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">My beautiful friend, My Max, was no longer in this world. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">The person i'd come to know, was no longer there. I wouldn't see him anymore. No messages from him would appear on my phone. No goodbyes would ever be said. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">For a long time, i didn't know how to feel. There was a void... A slight uncertainty that at any moment, more precious people would be taken from my life. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">For a long time, i pushed it away. Feeling like he might reappear and people had been wrong. That way, i wouldn't have to process what had happened. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">For me, there was no goodbye, no funeral, no comforting his loved ones, no reaching out to friends in a time of need. Circumstances at that time were very very cruel to me, and although i knew i had loved ones around me, i felt very alone in the world. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Looking back, i would've handled it differently, but that's the thing about time. Things seem so much clearer when you look back on them. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">They still haven't found my dear friend, and at this stage, probably never will. That fact alone used to bring me to tears. But nowadays, that fact represents trust for me. Trust in Jehovah and true belief that he is in his memory... and that is enough. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I've come to learn that grief is as individual as a fingerprint.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Take the time you need. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Think what you need to or don't think at all.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Use the memories, the precious moments you'll only know about, and keep them close to your heart. Allow them to just be, to be a part of you and motivate you to keep on making more moments in your life that you will look back on. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">I still feel that void, but I'm grateful for the precious time i had with my friend. </span><br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-18365181154717590582017-01-09T13:21:00.001+00:002017-01-09T13:24:14.064+00:00When small things become a big deal...<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Sometimes, maybe i should say often, small things can become a big deal. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">I think there are many reasons behind this, procrastination being a crucial point to pick up on, but putting that aside, i think it is a result of having an illness. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">If you have a long term illness or are dealing with chronic pain, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">we can all agree that there is a certain amount of baggage that can come with that. Feelings of extreme exhaustion, never ending fatigue, anxiety about the future, social anxiety, stress, brain fog... I feel like that list could go on for another paragraph. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">But with this baggage, suddenly the very small, everyday things become giant steps that we have to climb up. Take, for example, the simple task of painting a wall. Ok, maybe that's not the simplest of tasks, but something attainable for the everyday person. They set aside a day, buy the paint, move the furniture away from the wall, cover it and have a go at painting the wall (hopefully having done some sort of research beforehand). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Put that in the context of someone with a chronic condition. Maybe the thought of deciding on a paint is too much because there are too many options, maybe they don't physically know how they could stand all day, maybe going to the store to buy the paint will be enough to make them spend the rest of the day in bed. Maybe it all feels too much. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">I'm just using that as an example that's attainable for someone who has never had to process the limitations of someone with a chronic condition. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">It could be something as simple as sending an email. My fellow spoonies, will get and fully understand the phrase 'Brain fog'. But recently i had a case of brain fog and i thought i'd put off sending this email as i wanted to think it through and phrase it right. Well, days turned into weeks as brain fog then turned into anxiety as i still hadn't sent the email. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">I wanted to let you know, if you've ever felt this way, I get you! So many of us are going through the same emotions and trying to battle through everyday tasks. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Recently i've taken to writing a list of "things i really hate but i have to do"...trying to get a couple of these done in a week or month, whatever you can do, helps to contribute to a feeling of accomplishment. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">You got this! Or if you don't.... that's ok, one step at a time.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Love to all the spoonie community, Beth xxx</span><br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-55603568608152833962016-06-04T14:56:00.000+01:002016-06-04T14:56:07.369+01:00Saying Goodbye...<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I wrote this a few months back and as the days are flying by, i feel like it's right to share this...</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; line-height: 16px;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">It never feels right to say goodbye.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Maybe that’s why i keep putting it off.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The timing isn’t right. The feelings are too hard to address. Any way of commemorating you isn’t worthy enough.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"> </span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">You see, you are too special. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Too much of everything to just let go of.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"> </span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">And that’s the problem. I. Can’t. Let. Go. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I just can’t. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">but maybe thats ok.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"> </span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Maybe i have to find a way to let it be. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">To get by day to day and let little things remind me of you. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Maybe that’s the way i deal with it. Not to “get over it” but to carry you.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">To carry what precious little i have of you with me. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Maybe i don’t need a day for you, or a commemoration to remember you. Maybe that’s the only way i’ll cope. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Because having to physically mark that you are gone, is to let my world crash down. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">And i’m not ready for that. Not ready to say goodbye. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">So this isn’t goodbye. It’s I miss you. But i’ll remember you. Always. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Recently i put up a cover up on Youtube of one of my most favourite Disney songs, "I see the light" from Tangled. I made a shortened version of the song, just singing Rapunzel's section of the duet.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">You can see my cover here:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Here are the Uke chords and lyrics i used for my cover: </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">All those days, Watching from the window</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">All those years, Outside looking in </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">All that time, Never even knowing,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">C D7 G7</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Just how blind I've been </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">C G7 C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Now I'm here, Blinking in the starlight</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">C G7 C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Now I'm here, Suddenly i see</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Standing here, It's oh so clear, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Am D7 G7</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">I'm where I'm meant to be</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">F C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">And at last i see the light </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">G7 C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">And it's like the fog has lifted</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">F C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">And at last i see the light</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"> E7 Am7</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">And it's like the sky is new</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"> F C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">And it's warm and real and bright </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"> Em F</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">And the world has somehow shifted</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">C G7 C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">All at once everything looks different</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">F G7 C</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Now that i see you</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">F G7 C </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Now that i see you </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Have a great day!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Much Love, Beth xxx</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-55448307375128983832016-04-20T15:47:00.000+01:002016-05-29T23:56:01.097+01:00Art Focus: Get out of your own way!<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">I read a quote recently that said "Great things don't come from comfort zones"</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">The reality of running your own business is that you can very easily get comfortable and stuck in a routine that isn't challenging you. Being your own boss has it's benefits but you defintely have to be on top of your game! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Enthusiasm for your business is a must but that's easy to say and harder to actually maintain. So here are a few things i've found helpful when i've mentally hit a brick wall. These can apply to running a business, working from home, running a blog, youtube channel etc. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">This is probably the hardest step, even still, for me. I'm naturally a very introverted person and find it hard to express myself in day to day life never mind talking about my business. But i've learnt that talking about what you're up to not only keeps you excited about your work but also you get so much inspiration from throwing ideas around with friends.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">2. Have a few projects lined up. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Another must for me is knowing where my business is going. Every 6 months or so i'll re-assess and plan out a few major projects i want to complete in the next few months. This way, you don't get lost in the day to day routine, rather you're working towards bigger goals or targets that give you needed motivation. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">3. Embrace social media!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">If you haven't already... really??? Do it! There's nothing more awesome than instant feedback. Building a community of followers takes time, so be patient. But if people are interested in the subject area of your work they'll stick around and even better, give you much valued advice!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">A warning with this though, don't listen to just one voice. What are the community as a whole telling you? Don't let one negative comment put you off the project you've always wanted to work on. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">For me, that means space, space to lay everything out. It also means letting things get a bit messy while I'm in the middle of projects - so my big desk suits my work style!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Try a few different set ups and figure out where you are most productive. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Working from home comes with the added challenge of learning to leave it alone. Sometimes i'm tempted to do a bit of work in the evening, despite already working during the day. But i've learnt it's best to leave it. Be strict with </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">yourself and enjoy the recreation time! Also, having scheduled work hours means i'm more productive in that time now. Rather than thinking "Ah, i can get around to that later" i'm more strict with myself meaning i usually get more done compared with what i used to. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Working from home can be a bit monotonous, so change it up where you can. Whether it's new projects, sitting out in the sun to do a bit of paperwork, regularly changing up your work hours, or being creative with your workspace, be sure to diversify your work and keep it fun!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">I hope some of these tips help you. I work as a self employed artist and illustrator, if you'd like to see my work you check it here: <a href="https://www.instagram.com/bethanyrogersart/">https://www.instagram.com/bethanyrogersart/</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Have a great day!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace; font-size: large;">Much Love, Beth xxx</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-85940478765873040662016-04-03T22:52:00.000+01:002016-04-07T20:06:42.068+01:00Living with Anxiety & Learning to drive...<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Anxiety is without a doubt one of the most vexing things you'll go through in life. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">It's hard to describe and even harder to understand.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">For me, it's an underlying thing and then, all of a sudden it consumes me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Learning to drive was probably one of the most daunting things to challenge my anxiety. Heart palpitations before my lessons were a regular occurrence. Often i couldn't sleep the night before a lesson. The whole day leading up to my lesson would spur my mind into a panic, leading me to think i wasn't good enough, i should give up and that i would never remember enough from the lessons to eventually pass my test. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">At the time I felt an overwhelming amount of determination, even if my mind wasn't at a good point to deal with new things, i felt like it was a necessity not to give up and that if i succeeded, this would be an incredibly altering thing and ultimately, unbelievably empowering. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Every single mistake i made in my lessons stayed with me. More fuel for my mind to be anxious! But i carried on. I did a lot of breathing exercises before my lessons. After each lesson i tried to take a bit of time to appreciate everything i'd done right. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">I think it's important to acknowledge that anxiety doesn't go away. I try to not</span><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"> let anxiety prevent me from doing things. But it's still there. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Every time i think about driving, my mind tries to tell me that i don't remember how to do it. Or that it would be wiser and safer for me to stay at home. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">It sounds absolutely bonkers! And it kind of is. But it's a reality. Like an inbuilt reaction that i can't stop. I hope that as i gain more and more experience that voice of anxiety in my head will get quieter and quieter. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">The biggest lesson i have learnt is that whilst we do acknowledge our anxiety, and that is a very important step, It's not always correct to listen to it. We can prove ourselves wrong and do things we never imagined. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">You have just as much potential to reach for your goals and pursue what makes you happy.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Anxiety is a part of me, but it doesn't define me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Much Love, Beth xxx </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">When i passed my driving test last year....</span><br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-86987700235273238792016-03-06T20:10:00.000+00:002016-03-06T20:13:18.696+00:00For my Nana Frances // So Much - Newton Faulkner - Lyrics and coverThis post is a hard one for me to write. It's about someone i care for deeply, but sometimes when you care so much about someone it's hard to put that into words.<br />
Especially, when it's family.<br />
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I never had the privilege of meeting my Nana Frances but i've gone through my life with people telling me i look like her, act like her and remind them of her.<br />
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Despite never meeting her, she's so precious in my heart. To have so much of someone be a natural part of you is a blessing.<br />
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When i first listened to this song, i stopped in my tracks. I just felt like everything i ever wanted to say to my Nana was in this song.<br />
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So much - Newton Faulkner Lyrics<br />
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I wish you, could see me.<br />
I'm flying, still don't know how<br />
I owe you, some much i guess you knew that.<br />
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I know that, you would be,<br />
proud of me, i hope you are,<br />
I owe you so much,<br />
I hope you knew that.<br />
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There's so much of you, in everything i do.<br />
Just wish that you were still around.<br />
But i'm following through,<br />
Just could do so much more if you, were still around.<br />
Were still around.<br />
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I'm still here, Still fighting,<br />
Still crazy, still trying,<br />
I owe you so much,<br />
I hope you know that.<br />
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There's so much of you, in everything i do.<br />
Just wish that you, were still around.<br />
But i'm following through,<br />
Just could do so much more if you were still around.<br />
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It's one thing time will not erase.<br />
My life would not have been the same.<br />
I miss you, i could use a friend.<br />
to run some things by now and then<br />
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There's so much of you...<br />
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In everything i do...<br />
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There's so much of you in everything i do,<br />
Just wish that you were still around.<br />
Were still around<br />
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I wish you, could see me,<br />
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I'm flying...<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-20842907247691564102016-02-20T14:53:00.000+00:002016-02-20T14:54:56.116+00:00Deep in the meadow - The Hunger Games - Lyrics & Cover Hey Folks!<br />
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So last week i put up a cover of a beautiful song featured in The Hunger Games. Jennifer Lawrence sang it beautifully at the end of "Mockingjay - Part 2" and i couldn't help but doing my own version of it.<br />
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"Deep in the Meadow"<br />
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Deep in the meadow, under the willow,<br />
a bed of grass, a soft green pillow.<br />
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Lay down your head and close your eyes,<br />
and when you wake the sun will rise.<br />
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Here it's safe, here it's warm,<br />
here the daisies guard you from every harm.<br />
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true<br />
Here is the place where i love you.<br />
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If you're like me you're a visual person and reading long articles ain't the greatest fun! With this in mind i've really been trying to up my game on Youtube and make videos that truly reflect what it's like to live with a chronic illness. One of my most recent videos i filmed on a work day at home.<br />
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Granted i'm coping quite well these days. I'm tired beyond words but my morale is high, higher than it's ever been since i've been diagnosed. So the last thing i want you to do is compare yourself to me and feel like you should be doing more. I'm very grateful for my very basic weekly routine and to also have work that is extremely flexible for those frequent days where everything is a challenge.<br />
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So i'll link the video, please show your support, and comment! I love reading & replying to your comments.<br />
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Treat life better than it has treated you. Breathe. Drink tea.<br />
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Love you.<br />
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Beth.<br />
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Have a great day!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-22080082275581568722016-01-21T22:09:00.000+00:002016-01-22T20:13:11.497+00:00Somebody that i used to know<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I believe that some of us are more nostalgic in nature. I would include myself in the "extremely nostalgic" category, meaning memories of the past are a daily occurrence, even an hourly occurrence.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Hence, i look backwards, metaphorically speaking, at my life. A LOT. However, a problem arises when you have this trait, you always seem to sugar-coat the past. Making it seem much more glorious than it was.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">It was this problem that faced me recently. I had found myself picking up on all the things in my life that currently I'm not happy with and comparing it with the past. But this kind of attitude can be extremely damaging. It can lead to a life where you're constantly chasing an ideal where all the motions in your life are running correctly all at the same time. When the reality is, there's always an area in our lives that we need to give attention to.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I would pick the life that i am living right now over all of those diary entries. And yes, in the past, i may have had more time for the people i cherish, but in no way was i content or living a full life. I have a lot more going on these days. I actually have a schedule that i do my best to keep to. I volunteer quite a few hours a month, i run my business (and i actually have scheduled work days in the week - eep!), I have begun translating sign language again, I've been practicing guitar again, I'm hopefully back on more consistent schedule with blogging and Youtube - and i wonder why I'm tired?</span><br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-18740040610180614042015-11-23T19:19:00.000+00:002015-11-23T19:19:10.944+00:00Taking some time...<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Do you ever come to a cross roads in your life and not know which way to go? I feel like this is the first of many cross roads i will come to. Truth is, i really hate making serious decisions. I just get intimidated by the thought that i could be severely impacting my future. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Anyway, I came to a point in my life recently where i needed to make a few decisions. And i kind of put everything else in my life on hold, including this blog. I don't know how much progress i have made with my decisions but now I'm just trying to be content with not knowing exactly where i'm going. You just get to a point where you have decide what's important and be ok with that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Much Love and you'll be hearing from me real soon :)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I always found the weeks where i had hydrotherapy i was alot more relaxed and that often resulted in me sleeping better. We were encouraged to carry on the exercises at a local pool. However at the time i was in school full time, didn't drive and my nearest pool charged £5 per session. Hence, at that time in my life it wasn't overly realistic for me to carry it on. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Often you'll get the session dates & times well in advance. My hydrotherapy sessions took place at my nearest hospital. In recent refurbishments they added a pool to their physio dept.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Once you've arrived and found where you need to go, often you'll have a few forms to fill in - Yes, they are the dreaded "Please rate your pain from 1-10" forms - but just get them filled in and you can move on. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">There's often only a few invited for a session at a time. The most i've ever had was 5 other people in the pool with me. It is awkward - that is, if you're like me and have little social skills - but remember that no matter who the other people are, you are all in the same boat. You all have pain, and you're all doing your best to manage it. Actually once i'd got over my shyness, i met some lovely people with some very brave stories. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The main thing is to feel relaxed in the pool. It helps to much if you can feel calm. The exercises are in no way strenuous, they're more like stretches and you are under no obligation to anything that hurts. If you wanted you could just relax in the pool, the physiotherapists emphasised that we are the only people who know how much pain we are in - so we control how much we do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I don't currently get hydrotherapy. But i'm very happy to say i'm at a good place with my pain and i go swimming once a week - something i never thought i'd be able to manage!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I'd recommend it to anyone, particularly if you are newly diagnosed or are going through a really tough time physically/mentally/emotionally. The time in the pool helped, but actually the time with the physiotherapists and fellow chronic illness sufferers really helped me to develop and eventually to be able manage my pain. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">So there's my wee review. I think i'll do a few more reviews on things i've tried for pain in the past. If i can help anyone, it's worth it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">With yourself and with the people around you. There’s nothing worse than feeling a flare up coming on and being in denial or hiding it. The sooner you deal with it, the sooner you will recover and get help from others.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I know it sounds stupid but it works. Have you ever wanted to help someone but not known how? Well, help your family & friends out by writing out the things you need help with when going through a flare up. It’s also a good idea to include things to cheer you up. Thing’s i’d include are ‘a cup of tea in my favourite mug’or ‘watching While You Were Sleeping’.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">i love reading, there’s nothing i find more joy in than sitting down to a good book. But often i’m too exhausted to read when my health is really bad. Also it can be a struggle to focus on something for a long amount of time. I would highly recommend listening to an audiobook. Quite often your local library will have some sort of online service for you to borrow audiobooks too!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">You know, no matter what i’m going through, there is just no denying that music helps. Be sure to make a playlist of your favourite songs to listen to when you’re not well.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">There is nothing worse than feeling alone when you’re going through a hard time with your health. This isn’t easy but try to seek out the friends that will stick with you and do their best to understand what’s happening in your life. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I know how hard this can be. Trust me, I’ve been there. I got to a point last year where getting down the stairs each day was a struggle, but i did it. Most days, i sat out in the garden for half an hour, it doesn’t sound like much but it was a vital part of my routine and really helped me through that tough patch with my health.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I think we all forget how important it is to stop and just take a moment to breathe, especially when considering something so sensitive and fragile as grieving.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">So take a moment before reading any further and give yourself a moment of calm.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Ok, so here's the tough stuff...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">This loss threw a question at me - why does no one ever talk about grieving?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">For me, i always feel like there is this pressure that once a funeral happens, a loved one should just be able to move on. But in reality, it takes weeks, months, even years to just be able to live with the pain and to a certain extent, on some level, be able to cope.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">This point was really brought home to me when i was very young. I had a family member pass away when i was in primary school, i reckon i was about 10 years old at the time. A week after the funeral a classmate of mine came up to me and asked me why i was still crying? Why was i still sad?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Even as a child i could't believe how little it's talked about that we need time to process and grieve the loss of someone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">The main reason i wanted to write this post is because of the guilt i felt at taking time to grieve recently. It's been 3 months and my heart still feels like it's shattered in pieces when i think about my friend.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I don't know when i'll feel "ok" again but i'm processing and trying to be honest with myself about the time i need.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">If you have gone through a loss, i hope you find peace and a way to go on. Try to find joy in the simple things, and know that you will find happiness again. And when you are happy, know that it is in no way disrespecting your loved one but rather finding a way to carry on without them here.</span></div>
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-54144227086586085272015-07-04T15:07:00.000+01:002015-07-04T15:07:18.105+01:00Art Focus: Living from Commission to CommissionHello my lovelies,<br />
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I thought i would take a moment to discuss the ups and downs of working from commission to commission as an artist. If you'd like to check out my work, i'm most active on Instagram and that main acts as my portfolio these days. <a href="https://instagram.com/bethanyrogersart/">https://instagram.com/bethanyrogersart/</a><br />
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There are many different kinds of artist. I would describe myself as an evolving artist, one that is willing to learn a new skill just to complete your commission. You see, a lot of artists specialise and nurture their craft until they are an expert at one particular area of art.<br />
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I've never really been into that. I love spending time on a particular skill, but the idea of doing that one skill, repeatably, for the rest of my "career" kinda scares me.<br />
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I've always been someone who wants to learn - very ironic seeing as i didn't go to university. Maybe i should say i'm someone who constantly likes to increase my skill set. Quite often, that just means i teach myself how to do something. But this lends itself well to commissions in the 'Art' world.<br />
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I will do anything to help someones dream of a piece of art come true. I am pretty much up for anything. I really don't think i'd enjoy being an artist if i wasn't this way. It's really fun! You never know when you're gonna get a message from someone saying they'd like a piece of art the size of a person or a little quote the size of your hand. The sky is the limit and if you're thinking about being an artist, i couldn't recommend this way of life more.<br />
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Don't think it's all sunshine and roses though. With commissions come deadlines, pressure, stress, expenditure, very odd work hours and the determination to constantly learn.<br />
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Art should be accessible to all, whether you want to become an artist or you want to have a piece of art made, i want to break down the barriers of this far off world of art that seems out of reach to the everyday person.<br />
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Much Love, Beth xxx<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-67190507732168168492015-06-05T16:57:00.001+01:002015-07-27T15:44:17.781+01:00My Week: Live life through my eyes //The open diary of a chronic illness champion<br />
Hello dear friends, I hope you are all well!<br />
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A couple of weeks back i got an idea to keep a diary for 7 days, documenting what it's really like to manage everyday life with a chronic illness.<br />
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Inevitably, some days were better than others, hence some of the blog posts were better and longer than others.<br />
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If know someone with a chronic illness, extreme fatigue or even chronic pain, i'd ask that you please read some of these diary entries. When you have a chronic illness, all you want is someones understanding. This is my way of giving people the opportunity to understand what life is like from MY perspective.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Day #1 - 'not my usual start to the week':</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Day #2 - 'sleep is wayyy too important':</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Day #3 - 'a busy work day & driving!!':</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Day #4 - 'the "Meh" days' :</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Day #5 - 'changing up my diet':</span><br />
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Please let me say that these diary entires are personal to my circumstances. This doesn't blanket cover all people with chronic illness. We are all in different circumstances, some better, and some worse than others. I would consider myself somewhere in the middle. If you know someone personally who is going through a tough time or tiresome circumstances, i would encourage you to go and talk to them. Give them the opportunity to open up to you and give them time to voice how they feel.<br />
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Have a great day!<br />
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Much love, Beth xxx<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-64710953431188870102015-05-26T00:29:00.000+01:002015-05-27T14:31:38.900+01:00Day #7 - 'social situations can be stressful' - Live life through my eyes: The open diary of a chronic illness championI know, i know...i'm a day late with this diary entry but i have a good excuse, i was being social. Considering how bad my anxiety was last month, i'm proud of the steps i'm making. Mind you, i couldn't have been out last night without my brother and my 2 best friends. But still, i'm happy i went.<br />
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So seeing as i spent some of today recovering from one... let's talk about having a chronic illness and going to social events. First off, for anyone with illness or pain, you have to make sure you definitely want to go. All that effort just isn't worth it if it doesn't appeal to you or doesn't seem worth it.<br />
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Then, on the actual day you have to pray you won't have a flare up or a random 'no-sleep' night beforehand. I really feel like the people around you help to make social situations less stressful for chronic illness sufferers. You need atleast one person who truly understands you and your situation with you. Even if its just a 'how are you?' during the evening, it's important to feel like someone is looking out for you.<br />
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Make sure you brace yourself for the next day. Forget work, it's not going to happen. Don't make any solid plans for the next day. As always, surround yourself with people who love you and understand what your going through. The day after is always hard, that's why you've got to make sure the initial event/party is worth all the effort!<br />
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Pace yourself over the next fews days. Pushing yourself and ignoring your body will only bring on a flare-up. Take it easy and make sure you have plenty of fun!!<br />
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This week of blogging has completely flown by for me. Usually, at the end of every week i find myself reflecting on the past week and all i have accomplished. Most of the time, theses reflections mean i ponder on how i should be more organised and be more productive. I know i need to start being more positive and easier on myself.<br />
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But i always look forward to a new week starting, it's a chance for new beginnings. I received tons of orders over the weekend, so i need to get my act together and get organised.<br />
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Have a great week,<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-91533787426559891032015-05-24T00:43:00.001+01:002015-05-27T14:30:05.326+01:00Day #6 - 'Work hours are non-existent' - Live life through my eyes: The open diary of a chronic illness championit's nights like this i am reminded that i run my own business. I know it's 12:30am on a saturday night. I should be asleep or enjoying the weekend, but i'm doing work on my laptop instead, and i don't mean blogging, I don't consider blogging as work.<br />
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The difficulty with having a chronic illness is timing. I should've done all my work this afternoon but i was out all morning and absolutely exhausted by the time 2pm rolled around. My eyelids were shutting on me so i took a 3 hour nap.<br />
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Most people can say, i'll work 5 days a week, 9am til 5pm, and then i can enjoy my evenings and weekends. But with an illness it's extremely hard to have a routine. You can plan your week but then you have a bad day or a flare up and it puts the whole week out of sync. So you take what opportunity you can.. even if that be after midnight on a Saturday.<br />
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Otherwise today was fairly successful. I didn't do anything too crazy today as i know i'll be busy all day tomorrow. Literally i'll be up at 8am and i won't be able to chill until midnight. A lot of it is social events but i discovered recently that i'm something called an introvert. Basically it's a great way of explaining how much social events drain me and are a challenge for me. So tomorrow will be a challenge but i've got some great friends who really get me and understand me.<br />
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Right, I'm going to keep it short and sweet. I've got half and hour more of work to do then i'm gonna pray i get to sleep straight away... big day tomorrow :)<br />
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Much Love, Beth xxxAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10265624058227495665noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1513704947633394599.post-35139072200796609672015-05-23T01:50:00.000+01:002015-05-27T14:30:35.937+01:00Day #5 - 'changing up my diet' - Live life through my eyes: The open diary of a chronic illness champion Days like today just fly by. We all get them and i think i truly know the day has flown by when it's 11pm at night and i'm only just starting to think about dinner.<br />
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I've been debating changing up my diet recently. I've cut down on bad fats and sugars recently which has brought down my overall calorie intake and i can feel the difference. I eat fairly 'clean' and healthy. I always try to cook everything from scratch but i never think too much about food 'groups' and whether i'm having an equal amount from each. Recently i'd come across an article on how a diet high in natural fats has helped some people with chronic illnesses.<br />
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I know, it sounds completely wrong. Adding fat to your diet can help? well apparently yes. And i know what your thinking... Ahhhhh...i'll put on 2 stone with a diet like that. Well that's where i was surprised, Many people found when lowering carbs, which can be translated into sugars and absorbed in to your bloodstream, and upping healthy natural fats, their body actually started letting go of their fat reserves and they lost weight. Which kind of makes sense when you think about it. Your body holds on to things it deprived of, like its afraid it won't get it again. But if you give it a regular fat intake, it starts a cycle where your body doesn't need to hold on to as much fat. Weight loss is definitely a benefit for me but the bigger appeal was that people noticed their side effects of chronic illness lessening.<br />
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Anyway, read up on it yourself. There's a lot more science behind it and it's a lot more eloquent than my ramblings.<br />
The most important thing i'll need to consider is the impact it will have on my overall health. Most people can adapt well to new diets and quickly get into new routines but it takes a lot more thought and effort for me. When i try something new like this i have to think about whether i'm ready to take on the challenge yet or not.<br />
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Back to today...I got a little work done but it definitely feels like another day has whizzed past right before my eyes and I'm trying to catch up. Still, it was a much better day than yesterday.<br />
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Thank you for reading my ramblings, let me know your thoughts on chronic illness & diets/ high fat diets/changing eating habits... any of that stuff :)<br />
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Today is tough. Not that it's been much of a tough day but rather it's tough to write about. But, I am thankful i have my little blog post to write today.<br />
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This morning I was blessed with the horrible curse all women get monthly. Whoop! whoop! Mood-crazy, sugar-craving time of the month! (SARCASM)<br />
I kind of knew how the rest of the day would most likely pan out. When you add in this monthly blessing on top of existing pain and tiredness, it wipes you. Its frustrating though, you're forced to little, not out of choice or as a consequence of doing too much the day before but purely out of circumstance. It sucks...<br />
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It sounds extreme but at the end of day's like today you can very easily find yourself questioning what you even do with your life. It only takes 24 hours of having to stay in bed for your brain to turn on you and start viewing everything negatively.<br />
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But, you also ponder a lot of things. I often find myself thinking about my friends and wanting to spend more time with them. I think about my family, all they do for me and how i want to spend more time with them too. Most importantly, i think about the past. Many people tell me not to hold on to the past and to focus on the future. But, looking at the past gives me hope. I think of all the experiences i've had in my 21 years, all the times in the past when i did things i thought were impossible and that gives me hope. It reminds me that, today may not be so good, but who knows what i may accomplish tomorrow.<br />
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Speaking of which, i have alot of packaging up to do tomorrow. I had an auction on my Instagram account at the start of the week, so i've got some artwork to send off. I often give myself little goals to accomplish for the next day. Tomorrow's is to package up orders. If i get to the post office as well, that'd be a major bonus!<br />
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Thank you for reading this,<br />
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It actually didn't start out great. I had to stay in bed an extra two hours than i wanted too. I know, it sounds heavenly but my stomach was cramping constantly and i couldn't stand without it hurting more. When you're on medication it's only "normal" that you'll get off days and side affects.<br />
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Once, that passed i got on with the day. My work had piled up throughout the last week so i had plenty to tackle! I replied to loads of messages, and got organising my desk ready to set up new commissions. I finished off a couple of illustrations and quotes, ready to package and send off. I also start some new projects. I cut out card, planned the artwork in my journal and mapped out the initial sketches on the sheets of card.<br />
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I gladly welcomed numerous tea breaks with my grandparents. They were over for the day helping with some major work going on in our garden. I wanted to be out there helping them but i had to be selfish in that 1. i had my work to do and 2. It would take me 3-5 days to get over that amount of physical work. Today was an example of why i am thankful to have an understanding family.<br />
Not once did any of my family complain that i wasn't helping, it helps to take away the guilt when you have people that understand you surrounding you.<br />
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I then got some driving practice in when i took my grandparents home. Did i mention i passed my driving test? I did it exactly a week ago today. I learnt to drive in a Ford Fiesta and i own a Skoda Yetti... it's taking a little getting used to! The main thing is my spacing, not the road and parking, but i'm the type of person that i'd rather be safe than sorry so i'm being safe and double checking everything! I can't wait to know my car better and not have to think so much when driving her.<br />
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Once i got back home i felt super inspired to keep going with my artwork, there have been tons of projects i haven't been well enough to have a go at, so this evening i spent hours doodling and illustrating. I finished just after midnight and i feel super content. This is definitely a good day!<br />
My back aches and i won't be able to do much more than work on the computer tomorrow but it's worth it. I'm currently looking at my desk covered in drawings, doodles, animals, patterns and orders, feeling very content.<br />
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I hope you all had a great productive day!<br />
Much Love, Beth xxx<br />
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There was a time, meaning 4 months ago, when i'd stay up til 3am getting work done. Now i fade quickly after midnight and have to go to bed. I used to cherish my time in the wee small hours making art, but now i actually appreciate the mornings so much more. I do my best to get up around 8am and get going on work, then i can relax when the work is done for the day.<br />
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I actually accomplished a lot this morning. I woke up around 9am and got lots of correspondence done (fancy phrase for messaging people about work).<br />
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Around 4pm i realised it's still frappaccino happy hour at starbucks for the next few days so i threatened my brother that i was taking the car to go get one and he surprisingly decided he wanted to come with me! It was good to get out of the house. Today has been a typically rainy day for Ireland, which can get pretty depressing when cooped up inside.<br />
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I felt wrecked when i got back though... social situations are really draining for me. I always need a nap or a rest after going out, even just for 30 minutes at starbucks. So i spent some time recovering and then got back to work. I checked in with all my Instagram activity and got going on a few new quotes that are on order! It's a good feeling get some work done.<br />
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Sorry this is a shorter entry today but my bed is calling me!!!<br />
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